while you wait...
part three is coming tomorrow...
we were very scared about labor and delivery. we were less scared about bringing home baby.
turns out my unplanned labor and delivery, made bringing home baby a little more difficult.
it is the hardest thing i have ever done. taking a shower is an accomplishment, and when matthew comes home and asks, "what did you guys do today?" and my reply is "oh... um... nothing." he looks at me a little confused.
i can't explain to him how it is the hardest thing i have done, and how just feeding him takes up my entire day. he doesn't understand how hard it is to get up and go to the bathroom, yet alone start a load of laundry, clean the counter, or give the baby bath.
and yet this place is perfectly comfortable. a tiny bit dirty and smelly, but happy. and being peed and pooped on, and not having time to shower, or any occasion to wear a bra... is okay by me.
just seeing his sweet face, is all it takes to remind me how blessed i am... how perfect this life really is.
and makes me wonder, how i will ever be able to leave this little guy. my buddy. my heart and soul. just seeing his face, reminds me that this is where i am meant to be.