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everybody is scared of something.

"Mama, everybody is scared of something."

He is almost 7.  But he has always been older.  He was my baby not so long ago.  His voice is funny, because a long expensive relationship with the orthodontist has already begun.  And he looks old, not like a baby.  My heart is in my throat.  Because I already know where this is going.

"I'm scared of the dark and of riding my bike up the hill."

He was fidgeting, because kids always fidget.  I am not sure if it is because they are endless balls of energy or because they are uncomfortable in their skin.  Of course we are all uncomfortable in our skin, kids just don't know yet they should hide it.

"What are you scared of?"

I can't stop the tears.  Because the fear is so strong.  "I'm scared of something happening to my kids."  I am biting my lip.  I am wiping tears from my eyes.  I am sleep deprived.  I keep picturing Mrs. Weasley, trying to clean the boggarts out of the cabinets.  But she…

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