Rain Drops twinkle on Blooming Tulips on a Field near Freiberg, Germany
in 4th grade i did a school project on the netherlands. ever since then i have dreamed of traveling to holland and spending time in the fields of tulips. even at 9 years old i knew how idyllic the picture would be, standing in the middle of a vast field of sweet tulips, a windmill slowly circling in the distance.
the closest i got was the amsterdam airport. there were no tulips between my arriving gate, and my departing gate.
they are my favorite flower. they are a simple flower. a colorful flower. they are glowingly beautiful, if you ask me.
next fall, i must remember to plant some bulbs, i would love a yard full of tulips. i may be sidetracked with baby, and breastfeeding, and poopy diapers, and sleep... but i will really try to remember to plant some bulbs. maybe you can remind me? maybe you can come do it for me? no... okay, then i must remember.
Tulips in Holland
and someday, i would love to take that trip to the netherlands. i would like to buy some wooden shoes, and rent a bicycle with a basket on the front, and take a picnic lunch of wine and cheese and fresh bread, and ride my bike far into the countryside to the tulip fields, where i would sit and day dream, and write, and think. i might drift off to sleep. i would breathe in the sweet smell of flowers, and i would never want to leave. i would love for my matthew to be by my side, and i would also love to do this by myself. i just want to go. in any way, at any time... i want to go.
i have many dreams, and many ideas, and many thoughts. i want to experience nearly everything, knowing full well i will probably experience none of it. but no matter what the future holds, i will always have the pictures in my mind, the dreams in my head. and the dream is sometimes better than real life.
i am glad i have my dreams. i am glad i have my ideas, i am glad i have these thoughts. without them, life could really be a cold and dark and miserable place. they bring glimpses of light and hope. and i will always have the tulips, for at least a couple of weeks in the spring. another little glimpse of light and hope.