new running shoes breeds new life

I am always skiddish about sharing real parts of me on the internet. I mean really writing what is on my heart, on my mind, in my life right now. Why? I am not sure. There is no one who reads it, there is no one who would really care if i blabbe dabout my every feeling and emotion on everything that happened in my life. It would not matter to anyone, not change any part of their life. But it might change mine. To write what i am feeling, my heart, my mind. To write it, to put it into words, to allow myself to think it and feel it for myself. Perhaps the problem is not my fear to put it out in the open, but the fear to open it up at all. So, perhaps my heart, my mind will start making it out there more, making it in here more.

Today the main thing on my mind. My new running shoes. I have been running for 4 days on new running shoes.
This is important because...
... i purchased them on ebay, my first ebay purchase ever. quick, easy, and cheap.
... i have not bought shoes for the purpose of physical activity since 9th grade.
... i do not run.
... the previous two points are evidenced by the size of my hips (and the rest of me i suppose).
... and that is why i have been running for 4 days on new running shoes.
... i looked in the mirror, oooohh, when did that happen.
... i did not like what i saw.
... i tried on my bridesmaids dress, yikes the zipper barely goes.
... i really did not like what i saw.
... and that is why i have been running for 4 days on new running shoes.
... i decided something had to be done.
... and that is why i have been running for 4 days on new running shoes.
... i researched training programs online.
... i found one. in 8 weeks i will be running 3 miles. i can do this.
... i ran for 1 week on old 8th grade running shoes.
... i realized quickly that would not work.
... i researched new shoes on the internet. ooh, these ones will be great.
... and that is why i have been running for 4 days on new running shoes.
... 8 weeks. 3 miles. that is a 5k.
... i reserached 5 k's on the internet.
... i found race for the cure, october 8th.
... i decided at 9 weeks, i would do this race.
... and that is why i have been running for 4 days on new running shoes.

9 weeks, this may be a stretch. But i have to do it. This one thing i will not quit. I am going to finish something i start, if only this one time in life. This one thing will not be made into a joke. I will not be a joke. It will not be like cello, guitar, and voice. It will not be like knititng, sewing, or crochet. Not like volleyball, basketball, golf, or horseback riding. It will not be like any of the possible hundreds of things i started and then quit. No, this time it is real. This time i will not quit. This time, you will not be able to laugh at me, you willl not be able to make fun of me. I will nto be the butt of your jokes. NO, not thsi time. This time it is real. And that is why i have been running on soft and cushioned, fresh and new smelling, shiny white silver and green, brand frickin' new running shoes.

Comments

  1. I am so proud of you!!!!

    You can do it!!!

    Run, Melinda, Run!!!!

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  2. thank you! it is much easier to do with encouragement.

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